I Hate Everyone and Everything

You know those days when you can't stand a thing in sight?

There's nothing that can be done to please you. You're in a shitty mood and only stuffing your face is going to keep you from being rudely inappropriate or mean and petty. I'm in one of those days. To remedy the situation, I came home from school earlier than I'd planned and I'm sitting on my couch listening to depressing music and surfing the blogosphere and saying very b!tchy things to myself. I can't even pinpoint when my mood when to sh!t today...

...actually, that's a lie.

It all started when I began running errands on campus for stuff I've got to do for my org. I went into the Kaplan office on Monday to see about giving away a scholarship to someone who is taking the GREs. The girl I met that day say it would be possible to get a list of people taking the exam on a payment plan so I left her my information and told her to contact me. She assured me she would.

It is Thursday. I go in, lah-dee-fucking-dah, and announce myself and my business. There is a guy behind the counter today and this boy has seen me in here before for the same thing.

And yet, he is surprised.

And looking extra EXTRA blankfaced after my announcement.

Now, I think that it's super understandable that I asked him what was going on. He answered me that he had no idea what I was talking about (a LIE) and that no one had said anything to him about anything at all (a TRUTH since he was so SLOW in understanding me that he probably didn't recall anyone saying anything since after the age of two). I said 'Well, okay, is that even possible?' .

He looks stupidly slow and says 'Nah, nah, I don't think so. Like, nah.'

A single no would have sufficed but alright.

Me: "Well, last time you guys said that I should talk to advisors at the Education College."
(Let me be specific, HE IS THE ONE WHO SAID THIS LAST TIME.)

Him: "Uh...um...I'm not really sure? I mean, yeah?"

Me: -_-

Him: ^_^

Like...why are you smiling at me when you don't know any of the information I've asked you for? I could have happily tossed a grenade behind that desk... So I left him my information again and he assures me that they will get back to me. I swear to high heaven if I don't get an email by tomorrow night, sh!t will get critical for him.

Good Lord.

After that, I felt as if I were functioning at a capacity that few other humans on campus were. I couldn't find anywhere quiet to study on campus. It was raining and facking COLD which I was honestly not dressed for. I nearly dropped my beloved laptop on gravel when a douchebag ran into me. It took me about fifteen minutes to get lunch. I lost circulating in my hands for a good 20 minutes. It's going to cost me more than I bargained for to invest in songwriting and lyric competitions. Simple questions (or at least simple to me) that I ask wrought confusion. I honestly believe that I could have asked 'Is the sky blue on a sunny day?' and I'd have received a 'eh?!' in response. Even people I like are irritating me at the moment. I'm either surrounded by stupid friends or stupid strangers. Mean? Possibly. True? Definitely.

I can say, with the full force of about three hours of chaos behind me, that I am officially in a bad mood.